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‘Untouched, really untouched. Pristine from the beginning of the world – this place. It has been waiting here since the beginning of time.’ Adi Da
I looked across the entire bay and the lagoon to the coral reef where the waves were breaking and slowly began to understand that there is a huge difference between mental knowledge and study and the actual living experience. The process of leaving behind a stuck habit or conviction or behavior pattern actually had to happen and not just be understood by the mind. It was now time to go through the acid test(13). Nobody could do it for me, not even the Master. The body and the mind have been collecting countless concepts, patterns and imprints due to the self-contraction because of self-centeredness throughout many lifetimes, and they had all become of ‘vital importance’ over time.
this body in this life not merely through studies and meditations or ecstatic states, but here in real life and love. One cannot skip anything or leave anything behind. Without the actual devotion to Adi Da in my actions every ecstatic experience remained empty and useless and I would beg for more experiences in order to become free. This had nothing to do with any kind of actions or with attempting to become free from something. The point was really about where I was directing my attention: towards my frustrations or towards reality, happiness itself, which was right in front of my heart. Or, as was the case at this moment, on the other side of the bay. I looked far across the roof towards Adi Da and felt deep happiness. This feeling was independent of where and how I was living or what I was doing. This happiness has always existed.
We celebrated many more ecstatic parties with Adi Da in this place, and each one was of equal intensity, intimacy and transcendence as the first one that I participated in. My sleep was shortened considerably by the nightly get-togethers with Adi Da, but since I did not want to miss a single moment I participated in every one of the Gatherings.
Then I just had to work with an exhausted body. I imagined myself to possess two bodies: one that was resting and the other that was always doing service to Adi Da. That way the ‘body problem’ was solved! Every day was filled with immense intensity and reflected the play (18) of the Master with His devotees.
It is the Truth-as-such that we can also call the divine all-transcending fire, that calls into existence this state of perpetual devotion and the Oneness with the Truth-as-such, our actual natural state. The responsibility for everything that I did was completely mine and happened out of my own free will. I could have had many breaks, could have spent my time talking and discussing. I could have had a completely different retreat, but I did not want to, I just could not.
There is nothing more beautiful than the moment one can look at the divine Self and to loose oneself in His Presence. His dogs also were totally surrendered in contemplation of Adi Da.
This time nothing was revealed. No revelation. No vision. I was totally blank and I sat there like an idiot perplexed in front of Adi Da. Suddenly I understood how pointless it was to meditate on the revelation, to want to hold on to it and to want to repeat it. At this very moment I had a different ‘revelation’: that I was a perfect arsehole and exactly like that I sat there.
A huge wave of humor swept over me and there was nobody sitting in front of me any more, and the body of Adi Da shape-shifted into a kind of a slide, a hole in this manifest and conditional reality through which the Conscious Light (21) streamed into this world.
A boundless current of compassion and love washed away even the slightest sprout of self-centeredness. His Siddhis, which could not be described with words, swept over us and over the entire globe. I saw Him as the Ashvamedha Horse(23), devouring everything in a divine manner and blessing the world, galloping with high speed and unconditional ferocity. The recognition was evident and implicit before me, with me and in me: the world was already free. Always has been. And paradoxically and mind-bogglingly without Adi Da’s permanent and invisible intervention, occurring without cease, mankind was about to destroy itself.
AI Summary
And the Heart Is Mine by Petrus Faller presents key insights from the Adi Da tradition. The 10 passages above capture the essential teachings.
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Key Passages: Highlights 1, 3, and 10 are particularly representative.
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