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Author: [[Kyle Cease]] Full Title: I Hope I Screw This Up Category: #books It is this realization that inspired Kyle to turn deeply within and shine the searchlight on how to deliver his gifts, talents, and skills as a source of inspiration and encouragement to his readers, as well as those who attend his Evolving Out Loud events. At first this can feel like unfamiliar territory, causing us to ask, “Is this the real me?” But when our analytical mind stops defining the boundaries of who we think we are or who we should be, the deepest and most authentic Self begins to emerge. The encouragement you will receive from Kyle’s personal journey begins with the wisdom of no longer rejecting parts of yourself, with embracing with loving-kindness that you are the vast space of consciousness that holds it all. Feelings of fear, sadness, anxiety—when they are not rejected and instead experienced for the self-revelations they offer—no longer are regarded as enemies but rather as signposts guiding us to the next step in our evolutionary growth. I know that might sound strange, but what’s stranger to me is the fact that most people don’t say what’s actually on their minds. We’re always thinking something, but instead of saying what we’re really thinking, which would free us and open us up to new possibilities, we instead say what we think people want to hear. How much easier would life be if we just said what we were thinking in the moment? Instead, by baring my soul and telling you what I’m actually experiencing, I’m freeing myself from the pain I would otherwise be hiding and holding on to. Something I’ve learned is that sharing my deepest truth, no matter how scary it is in the moment, is freedom. My only pain would come from repressing that truth. So I guess what I’m hoping for here is that whoever might be reading this will be able to connect to me and what I’m experiencing if I just share exactly what I’m going through. I know you may not necessarily be in the middle of trying to write a book, but you might be able to connect on the idea that I feel like I need to do something a certain way to make someone else happy. Have you ever felt that way? Have you felt that you had to do something that wasn’t what you really wanted to do, just to get love or approval from a friend, a teacher, a boss, a spouse, a parent? Do you know what I mean? Can you feel me? ARE YOU THERE? See? This is why I do better with audiences. I have no idea who the hell is reading this and how you’re reacting. I guess that’s why I’m in so much fear right now. Like most people, I’ve been trained to try to make everyone around me happy so I can feel loved by them. By writing this book, I’m actually learning how much I’ve been addicted to other people’s opinions of me. This is both scary and exciting. It’s scary to realize that, but it’s exciting to uncover something that I never knew about myself before. I’m doing exactly the same thing I do when I’m onstage, but because I don’t see you nodding and laughing, it makes me think I’m not doing a good job and I won’t be loved. I’ve had many times where I really felt like bailing on something that I was afraid of, but when I stuck with it, it caused me to grow internally and turned out to be the greatest decision I ever made.

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I Hope I Screw This Up by Kyle Cease presents wisdom from the contemplative traditions.

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