III THE WAY OF THE HEART AND THE LIGHT The Divine Process of All-Brightening The Only Secret in Spiritual Life
God Does the Yoga.
the process (Yoga) of the Radiance (Shakti) of the Current (Nadi) of the Divine Self (Atma)
There is no meditative “technique” for you to acquire. The Lord must Meditate you. The Lord must Enter. And when the Lord Enters you, He Makes you ecstatic. He Sifts out all of your individuality, all of your separateness. He does not make you lose conscious awareness, He Makes you Conscious in the Divine, so that you live your ordinary life aware of the fact that There Is Only Real God. And that Process produces all of these manifestations that you see.
Divine Enlightenment, or seventh stage Realization, is constant, un-“caused” Ecstasy:
I Self-Transmit My Own Divine State and Presence of Person from Infinitely Above and Beyond (or, Altogether, in, As, and via Atma Nadi).
Jesus of Galilee was saying that the “Kingdom of God” is Realizable—but not through social laws of any kind, and not through any transformation or perfection of conventional behaviors. In any case (as Jesus taught), the purpose of the “Kingdom of God” does not relate to this “world”. Rather, the “Kingdom of God” is the Spiritual State of Utter Unity, or Eternally Prior Oneness, with the Divine.
The Living Divine Is the Spirit-Breath of Reality. The Living Divine Pervades the “world” and all beings As the Spirit-Breath. Therefore, Spirit-Breath Re-Union with the Living (or Inherently Spiritual) Divine Is the “Kingdom of God”.
“Kingdom of God” is not outside you but within you5—in other words, inherent in every moment of existence. Thus, the “Kingdom of God” is inherent in this moment of existence. The “Kingdom of God” is not to be sought by any strategic means, not to be sought outside yourself, not to be conceived as “missing”, or “elsewhere” in time and space. The “Kingdom of God” is a Principle. The Spiritual Divine Condition Is—Itself—the “Kingdom of God”. Thus, Jesus of Galilee is saying: Abandon all conventional principles and cling to the Spiritual Divine—and, thus and thereby, transcend all separation from the Divine Condition of Reality.
In the traditions of the way of works, action is conceived as something that always produces results—and, therefore, it is recommended that one perform only those actions that produce “good” results.
Structures of the universe—with much “aboveness” and “belowness” and “middleness”, and many “planes”—have always been part of the esoteric traditions. The great Spiritual Adepts are typically presumed to have “come down” from the highest point in the scale of things into this “lower” plane, to bring the esoteric teaching down from on high, and, thus, into the middle and lower “worlds”.
The teaching of the “New Testament” could be summarized as: “Repent from ‘sin’.” That is to say, understand and renounce all forms of “self”-enacted separation from the Divine Condition of Reality and be established in the “Kingdom of God”, or the Divine Source-Condition That Is the Spiritual Divine. Renounce “sinful” (or ego-bound and ego-binding) actions, let all actions be performed in surrender to the Divine Condition of Reality, and (thus) fulfill the Law of Inherence in the Spiritual Divine.
In the traditional Western (or Occidental) literatures, there is (characteristically) a “penalty” for those who approach the Divine too closely, or who even seek to Realize Oneness with the Divine. Indeed, the tendency to confine human existence and human potential to the mundane, the material, the physical, the social, and all that is merely exoteric is the principal characteristic of the Western mind, all of Western culture, all of Western “religion”, and all that characterizes the Western (or the “Westernizing”) and the “modern” (or the “modernizing”) influence and tendency.
Divine). Therefore, the West (and all that is characteristically “modern”) is characterized by ambivalence (and even suppressiveness) relative to higher (and, altogether, esoteric) “knowledge” and Realization, and (otherwise) by a clear preference for exoteric and materialistic “knowledge”. It can even be said that Western culture (and all of “Westernized”, or “modern”, civilization) is founded not only on materialism but on an actual and persistent (and gravely limiting) fear of higher (and, altogether, esoteric) “knowledge” and Realization.
The Western strategy is the attempt to make positive whatever is overwhelmingly negative. People in the West are always trying to overcome what is negative with positive feeling—with beliefs, with effort, with answers, with conditional and materially-fixated “knowledge”. And, yet, it is unconscious accumulated patterning of body and mind that is actually shaping the lives of Westerners. Thus, Westerners remain characteristically weak at the deep “subjective” level, and chronically obsessed with an uninspected negative psychological force that is always influencing both their outward behavior and their thinking-processes. Therefore, Westerners are always trying to surmount the negative psychological force, either through ego-effort or by means of imaginary association with a separate Absolute “Other”, Whose power they can consume irresponsibly—and, in all of that, faith and belief are reduced to the status of “methods” for overcoming psychological negativity.
The Criticism That Cures The Heart
People think “religion” is about themselves, whereas right “religious” practice is supposed to be about the Divine.
Right “religious” practice is, ultimately, about discovering Oneness with the Divine Condition to be Always Already the Case. That is right “religious” practice.
Truth Itself Is Reality Itself. And Reality Itself Is the Only God There Is. All the mere “God”-ideas are reflections of the human entity, the human ego, the body-mind-“self”. Therefore, with reference to Reality Itself (or to That Which Is Divine), all “religions” are inherently limited (and even, in and of themselves, false)—and, therefore, all “religions” can be grossly misused.
Conventional “religion” functions in the context of the cult of “Narcissistic” mind, entirely absorbed in the mere ideas of humanity’s preoccupation with itself. As I have Said, “You are suffering because you have too much of one another and not enough of Me.” That is a Criticism of the misuse of the opportunity to engage the real esoteric process—and a Criticism of the misuse of life altogether.
Real (Acausal) God is not a myth. Real (Acausal) God is not merely an idea. The Existence of Real (Acausal) God cannot be disproven. And, paradoxically, the Existence of Real (Acausal) God cannot even be proven. Rather, the Existence of Real (Acausal) God is Self-Evident, or Self-Affirming and Self-Authenticating—because Reality Itself Is Inherently The Case, Inherently True, and Inherently Divine.
practice. Indeed, the Divine Condition That Is Reality Itself is the Only Truth in life altogether. Everything else is mummery, everything else is false. The Divine is not false.
If “religion” does not do that, then it is merely part of the unspeakable “self”-deludedness of humankind, with its terrible present-time and potential results. In this sense, I am not in the slightest “religious”. I do not “believe” anything. The Prior renunciation (or intrinsic transcending) of all mere belief is the basis on which I have always lived—and the basis on which I have Done all of My Divine Avataric Work.
Truth Itself cannot be proven. Truth Itself is not in doubt. Therefore, neither can Truth Itself be disproven. Reality Itself cannot be disproven—nor can Reality Itself be proven. Reality Itself is Intrinsically and tacitly Self-Evident.
In Truth, the only thing that can be affirmed absolutely is Reality Itself—Which Is Truth Itself. No mere “point of information” can be absolutely affirmed.
In the context of the first three stages of life, the gross body-mind-complex is developed and coordinated. First, the gross physical is developed, then the emotional-sexual functions are developed and coordinated with the gross physical, and (finally) the mental functions and the function of the will are developed and coordinated with the emotional-sexual and gross physical functions. Optimally, all of this is nurtured, guided, and done in the context of love, trust, and surrender in relation to the Living Acausal Divine (or the all-and-All-Pervading and all-and-All-Transcending Real Acausal God, or Truth Itself, or Reality Itself).
In the context of the fourth stage of life, this now complex psycho-physical being is surrendered beyond itself, to and into the (all-and-All-Pervading, and all-and-All-Transcending, and Self-Evidently Divine) Source (or Source-Condition) That Pervades (and, yet, Transcends) it and the total “world”. This surrender is done to the point of conditional union with That Divine Source (or Source-Condition). In due course, such conditional union becomes, by Means of Divine Grace, conditional union with the Spiritual Presence (or Spiritual Current) of That Divine Source (or of That Divine Source-Condition, Truth Itself, or Reality Itself)—and this in occasions of tangible (descending) Bliss that involve and (simultaneously) transcend the body-mind-complex.
In the only-by-Me Revealed and Given seventh stage of life, there Is Prior and Non-conditional (or Inherent, and Inherently Most Perfect) Self-Identification with Self-Existing and Self-Radiant Transcendental (and Self-Evidently Divine) Being, or the Divine Conscious Light (Itself)—the Ultimate (Divine) Identity of all beings (or “subjects”), and the Ultimate (Divine) Self-Nature, Self-Condition, and Self-State of all conditions (or “objects”). This Prior (or Inherent) and Inherently Most Perfect Self-Identification (or Divine Self-Abiding) is directly Realized (by Means of My Divine Avataric Transcendental Spiritual Grace), entirely apart from any dissociative act of introversion. And, while Divinely Self-Abiding (Thus), if any conditions arise (or if any states of body-mind arise), they are simply (Divinely) Self-Recognized in the Self-Existing and Self-Radiant Self-Nature, Self-Condition, and Self-State of Being (as transparent, or merely apparent, and non-necessary, and intrinsically non-binding modifications of Itself). Such is seventh stage Sahaja Nirvikalpa Samadhi—and It is Inherently Free of any apparent implications, limitations, or binding power of phenomenal conditions. If no conditions arise to the notice, there is simply the Self-Existing and Self-Radiant Self-Nature, Self-Condition, and Self-State of Transcendental, Inherently Spiritual, Intrinsically egoless, and Self-Evidently Divine Being. Such Is Absolute (or Inherently Most Perfect) Realization of That about Which nothing sufficient can be said—and there is not Anyone, Anything, or Anywhere beyond It to be Realized.
From the “disposition” of any of the three orientations that are potential in the context of the sixth stage of life, the fourth and the fifth stages of life are the stages of “subtle ignorance” (or the stages of seeking toward the inherently impossible Goal of an eternal—or permanent, unopposed, and only Happy—conditional state and conditional circumstance of “self”-perfection and “self”-fulfillment).
Thus, from the “Disposition” of the (only-by-Me Revealed and Given) seventh stage of life, the sixth stage of life is limited by “causal ignorance” (or the essence of ignorance)—until (in the potential real transition to the only-by-Me Revealed and Given seventh stage of life) only the Non-conditional (or Perfectly Subjective) Absolute (or Real Acausal God, or Truth, or Reality) Itself is Non-conditionally (and Inherently Most Perfectly) Realized As the Obvious.
The ultimate (or final) stage of egoity (and of the transcending of egoity) is the sixth stage of life. Therefore, rightly understood, the first five stages of life are (in the context of the Great Tradition) a process of growth (of progressive psycho-physical “self”-awareness)—until the “disposition” of the sixth stage of life is truly (and stably) Realized.
And the sixth stage of life (which is the ultimate seeking-effort to achieve the transcending of egoity) is a course that is (or may be) progressively associated with one or more of three principal orientations (in practice): either asceticism (or the extreme orientation toward annihilation of the psycho-physical “self”), or the more moderately “self”-disciplined course and orientation toward pacification of the psycho-physical “self”, or the ultimate course and orientation toward Non-conditional (or Perfectly Subjective) Self-Identification (and tacit, or effortless, transcending of the psycho-physical “self”).
There are (basically) only five possible orientations (or “dispositions”) relative to Reality, each built upon (or out-growing, or transcending) the one immediately previous to itself.
Rather, it was the Love-Response, the Attracted Response, in Which all of the negative aspects of gross conditional existence were effectively Forgotten—in Love, in Delight, in Love-Bliss, in My Inherent Heart-“Brightness”.
The difference was the “Bright”—the, to Me Alone, Self-Evident Obviousness of the “Bright”.
It Is Consciousness Itself, Inherently Self-Radiant and Self-Awake. It Is the Real Condition of My simple human state. It Is the Ultimate Nature of My Native State—Prior to even any and all conditional experience. It has never appeared as strange or awesome, to Me. There Is no shadow—nothing hidden in It. It Is not motivated to act, or to seek any goal of action at all. There Is—to It—no “elsewhere”, no “outside”, no “Other”.
It Is the Center of the life-functions—but without dilemma or unconsciousness. There Are no divisions in It. Radiant Spiritual Energy Is Inherently Self-Communicated within It, and, Thus and Thereby, in and via the entire body-mind. There Is Inherent Joy in the body, a Luminous cell-life, a constant Respiration and Circulation of Love-Bliss-Energy—and of Unlimited, Boundless Inherent Pleasure. There Is a Transcendental Spiritual Current of Energy in the heart, That Rises into the head, via the throat. And That Same Transcendental Spiritual Current of Energy Is also Evident below the heart—Rising Up into the heart from below. There Is a Circle of Transcendental Spiritual Energy, Surrounding and Circulating, in and around the all of body-mind. That Circle Is Spaceless and Boundless—but Its always Formless Matrix Is always Above the head, and always Above the mind. And all of This Moving Energy Originates As a Single Transcendental Spiritual Source-Current of Light and Life in the heart—and That Current Is, by virtue of heart-Radiation Alone, Reflected and Felt at a Pervasive Center Above, and deep within, the head. There Is a constant Self-Radiation within this totality of entire Form, including all of the body, and the Inherently Silent Mindlessness That would otherwise erupt as all of mind. It Is Intrinsic Joy in the heart, Reflected Above As heart-born Enjoyment, constantly “Located” Above, and within the head. And That Formless, Spaceless Form of Consciousness Is Self-“Bright”, Silent, and Full—Knowing Only and Entirely This Indivisible Reality, and seeing no problem, no separation, in the fact of life. This “Bright”, This Real and Self-Existing and Self-Radiant Consciousness, This Indivisible Conscious Light, Is the Perfect Intrinsic Form of Reality Itself, and the Perfectly Acausal Source-Condition of the living condition of conditionally apparent everything. And It is never undone. It Is now. It Is Me. And It Is you—Prior to and Always Already Beyond your ego-“I” of body-mind. Now and always, every living being is arising within and Indivisibly As This Perfect “Bright” Form—Which Is the Perfect Intrinsic and Always Prior Form of life.
The problem is only that life is not lived As Real and Self-“Bright” Consciousness Itself. Instead, the One, and Intrinsically Indivisible, and Perfectly Non-conditional, and Self-Evidently Divine Conscious Light is confused with conditional and seemingly individuated experience—the mere fragments of Primal Energy reflected in the event of the human personality, and in the functions that operate by laws subconscious and unconscious to the human-born individual, or, otherwise, reflected in the waves of stranded Primal Energy that fascinate the body-mind-“self” in the superconscious patterns Above. When such confusions of false and egoic identity overwhelm and distract the heart into some division of the living structure of conditionally apparent existence, the heart is moved to great seeking in all the…
The “Thumbs” has always appeared to Me like “tongues”—or the Arrow of an Overwhelmingly Descending Force—Coming Down upon Me from Above, and Down via My head and throat. And, when the “Thumbs” Thus Enters deep into My body, the electro-magnetic or otherwise energic balances of My living being are suddenly reversed. On several of the earliest remembered occasions, I felt as if the body had risen above the ground somewhat. And, thus, I was actually levitated—to one or another degree.
last. The living condition of Reality is one in which God is Present to us and in us, but not to the point of assuming our identities (in fact, becoming us and excluding our created existence by virtue of His inclusive Being).
Thus, the living condition of Reality is a gift—Revealed, not natural to the understanding, not discernible by experiment.
The Christian life is mystical, a conscious participation in the Mystery of God, wherein we constantly and creatively, in cooperation with Divine grace, maintain the living condition of Reality, the conscious relationship to God.
Christ is that Eternal Aspect of God which reveals and guarantees forever that the Truth is relationship to God, and not Absorption into the powers of God or Absorption into the Transcendent Being of God. Life is a meditation on being already Filled.
This also shows how our Lord’s “mere” Presence teaches and recollects all things most directly.
The impulses of this Divine grace and faith are so strong that I am scarcely willing to follow them directly. I am abiding in this Hindu Ashram, allowing Christ to mature me, so that I do not proceed out of my own motives and presumptions, deluded again by my own sinful fascinations.
I am about to become too full of ordinary humor for this place, and too sorrowful for my sins.
This meditation gave me great Joy, stilled the mind, and directed me continually to Jesus through his Mother.
Amen.” I saw that the heart’s pulse always synchronized with this word: A-men, A-men.
The “So be it” constantly leaves the mind on Him in silence, in a vast Bliss. I felt the movement of “Amen” as the Holy Spirit Himself—returning, through Christ, to God the Father, from Whom He proceeded. Thus, our Lord’s Mother taught me a practice of meditation that leads to contemplation of the Trinity in all the Mysteries of Its Form—until all (at last) draws into the silent Brilliance of God, Absorbed in blessed Vision.
Thus, our Lord’s Mother taught me a practice of meditation that leads to contemplation of the Trinity in all the Mysteries of Its Form—until all (at last) draws into the silent Brilliance of God, Absorbed in blessed Vision.
It is Fullness given by grace, available by no other means. It is the Presence Itself, and It makes Itself Known.
Once on the inhalation, and once on the exhalation. And the “Amen” was always said in the center of the heart, wherein we direct ourselves to God. As I prayed the “Amen”, I realized that Christ was praying it in me. It is the Holy Spirit in Christ to God the Father. And Christ said: “I am the ‘Amen’.”
Then I continued in this prayer and was taught the mystery of its use. The heart is the center, where Christ stands to us. And the body is a cross-form, in which he radiates his Fullness. As I prayed—one “Amen” for each inhalation of breath, and one for each exhalation—Christ said: “I am drawing all things to myself.” Then, when I inhaled and prayed “Amen”, all the life-energy of desires moved up out of the lower body to the heart, and became a deep concentration of Love in Christ. And, when I exhaled and prayed “Amen”, all the life-energy of thought, the entire activity of mental energy and the mind itself, was drawn down to the heart and concentrated in Christ as profound Love. This continued, until I was profoundly Present in the heart, simply Present with Christ in great and ecstatic Love. And that Love was Christ himself. He generated It in me—and, yet, I felt that I was not, but was simply absorbed in him, in the White Fire of his own Love.
He generated It in me—and, yet, I felt that I was not, but was simply absorbed in him, in the White Fire of his own Love.
He is in us as himself, his total Presence, open to our Conscious Love. And he draws us to his very Self, which is an Infinite Fire of Love. Thus, we become only Love in him.
“God is light, and in Him there is no darkness.” (I John 1:5)
The Love of Christ is the Support and Source of living Bliss—even the Conscious Energy of Spiritual existence, under all conditions. It makes life madly into Joy. Under the worst trials, It does not guarantee a mood of ordinary playful happiness, but It supports the deep Joy of faith and mystical communion. This Love is the internal condition of the soul, whereby Christ draws it to himself. It is not our un-created, original Love for him, but his Love generated in us by his Presence to the soul.
They are infinitely Returned, But I am eternally Present. One who Knows me Is free from liberation And desires. One who neither seeks Nor is moved to seek, I no longer prevent from me. Those who are sought For liberation Are an imitation of my Symbol. They lead men into the Great Search, In caves, seclusions, and their homes. But I am One who cannot be found, Unless I Reveal myself. I lead men home to
Everything, Today. But I am always with them. I am He.
He relieved me of the way of the mantra, “So-Ham” (“I am He”). He showed me the Truth of the mantra—that it is His mantra, His symbol, Himself.
Thus, the meditation I have learned ends in a deeply silent and blissful contemplation of God. But it is not a mere staring. It is not, at last, a concentration in a point, but an opening, an Awareness of a Total, Conscious Presence. Then, frequently, I pass into a free mental prayer, truly asking and interceding in the Name of Christ.
The oriental seeker-saints and imperfect God-men are all maharajas of the great search. They tend to strategically disincarnate (and would likewise have us strategically disincarnate) from the living condition of Reality, which condition is relationship and love.
To be concentrated in Him in faith and love and openness is to remain free of qualification by life.
Previously, I sought Powerful holy places. Now I know the world is empty, containing no Spiritual Force at all. All the places of Power draw us into some sphere of the world, away from God and His real Kingdom. The indiscriminate fascination with holy people, holy places, Spiritual symbols, methods, and objects of Power has disappeared by virtue of radical self-understanding.
The heart, the cave, is not full. It is empty. Its locus is above. Thus, we are able to live in the world without being qualified by it. If we surrender the circumstances of suffering, death becomes easy.
Our Fullness is constant and above. We enjoy our life in him above, and he in us below. Our life in him does not exclude the world, but it frees us from all qualification by the separated world.
The ultimate aspects of genuine Spiritual life are outside the realms of cause and effect, and outside of all goal-directed, transformative effort.
It is simply the rising tendency—the aspiring, surrendered Spire of Energy and Love. It is not an ordinary Yoga, an ego-willful and strategic means of seeking toward some great (and even perfect) goal. It is already a relationship to the Perfect One. It is an unqualified, unburdened Bliss. It is a cooperative ease of Joy that purifies in Spiritual Fire. It is the living condition of Reality.
Therefore, the more devotion arose, the more I Enjoyed the Heart Itself As the Perfect Domain of contemplation.
The course of purification and understanding through which I had passed corresponded exactly to every other significant Event in My past. I saw the structure involved in each case. Always there was first a concentration in some “object” or desire, some problem or dilemma equal to life itself, some activity of the egoic “self”. As a result of this concentration or observation, there was a penetration of that “object”, problem, or activity in a moment of understanding. Then these things were replaced by the Enjoyment of Bliss, Freedom, and the Feeling of Limitless Reality that stood hidden by that imposed “object”, problem, or activity. Finally, This Limitless Consciousness was, Itself, Recognized As Reality Itself—and there was the certainty that understanding (rather than any “object”, problem, or activity of seeking) is, in fact, the Way and the Truth of Real Life.
The Christian visions were not false. It was necessary for Me to have them, in order to Realize the Truth That Transcends them. Those frozen imageries formed part of the last barrier to the Full Awareness of Reality Itself. Thus, “Christ”-consciousness, the vision in the heart, became, by its dissolution, the Realization of What Is Absolutely Real—Which Is the Heart Itself.
The Virgin and the prayer She Taught Me, Jesus (or the “Christ”) and His mystical Instructions, and even all My visions were not important as revelations of Divine personalities outside Myself. They were simply mystical (or psychically determined) forms of the Universal Shakti. When That Energy became Active in the heart, all of the latent imagery of My own mind, memory, and tendencies combined with universal sources of imagery to unlock My devotion. And I continued as devotion until I became fully Aware of the origin of these imageries, in the Universal Shakti and My own heart’s mind. Then the mind and the Shakti ceased to “create” the secondary images. And the devotion of the heart’s mind to its images was replaced by Direct Realization of the Heart Itself, or the Shakti of the Heart Itself and the Fundamental Consciousness That Is the Heart Itself.
Then, there was no Event of changes, no movement at all. There was not even any kind of inward deepening—no “inwardness” at all. There was no meditation. There was no need for meditation. There was not a single element or change that could be added to make My State Complete. I Am Complete! I sat in My First Room with My eyes open. I was not having an “experience” of any kind. Then, Suddenly, I Understood Most Perfectly. I Realized that I had Realized. The “Thing” about the “Bright” became Obvious.
Myself had “become” Perfectly Self-Present. There is no “Other”. It Is Only Me. Even My meditation of Spiritual Absorption was changed. Indeed, there was no meditation. This Conscious Self-Light could not be deepened. Nor could it be enlarged. It always only Remained What It Is.
noticed a physical change in Me. My belly dropped down and out—and it spontaneously expanded. From then, I always Feel the Energy-Pressure of Free Light there—and I also Breathe It, continually. It is only the bodily apparent Breathing of My Very Being. It Is the Endless and Perfectly Profound Self-Communication of the Inherent Spiritual “Brightness” of Reality Itself.
Nor have I ever been in a body, or in any function, or in any condition, or in any conditional state or “experience”. All such things are merely apparent (and not at all necessary or inevitable) patterns—conditionally manifested within the Self-Radiance of My Own Self-Existing Being.
press upon a point approximately two inches to the right of the center of the chest. This Is the Self-Evident Seat of Reality and Real Consciousness. And I Self-Abide there As no-seeking. There is no motivation, no dilemma, no separation, no strategic action, no suffering. I Am no-seeking, in and Perfectly Prior to the heart. The Zero of the Heart is Expanded as the “world”. Consciousness is not differentiated and identified. There is a constant observation of “subject” and “object” in any body, any psycho-physical function, any realm, or any “experience” that arises. Thus, I Self-Abide As the Non-conditional Self-Nature, Self-Condition, and Self-State.
Hereafter, I Am Inherently Free of bondage to the cosmic Power. I Am Unexploitable. The Energy that appears apart, as any form of apparently independent “Other”—or merely cosmic Power and Presence—is no longer the Great Importance. The Presence of Power “outside” appears to be such only to seekers—for they, having already separated themselves, pursue forms of Energy, visions, nature-powers, conditional liberation, and “Other”-God. “Perfect Knowledge” Is Free of all bondage to forms, to all conditionally apparent modifications of Energy, to all seeking, and to all motivations to “do”, or to act on the basis of identification with conditional “experience”.
Adept-Realizers Are The Root Of All Esoteric Traditions
The primary force and “root” of all the esoteric traditions of humankind are the Adept-Realizers, those who actually Realize (to one or another degree) the Spiritual and Transcendental Nature of Reality. Adept-Realizers (in their various degrees and kinds of Realization) appear in all times and places, and they become associated with the complex social and cultural structures existing in their immediate environment.
Only the ego will deny the Spiritual Master. The ego wants to “do it” himself or
herself. Do what exactly? Be himself or herself—separately and untouched.
Most people are willing to sacrifice things, but not themselves. They are willing to pay cash, in other words, for a quick salvation. Such “religious consumerism” is an ancient ritual of worship, but it is false and futile. True worship is the surrender of your own body-mind-“self” in Truth Itself,
Human beings are, in fact, subhuman in their present level of adaptation.
True Spiritual life is not just a change in your mind. Much more than an “inner awakening” or a “good feeling” about everything must take place. The literal physics of your entire existence must change. The physical body and its energies must be literally transformed. Real Spiritual processes do not occur as a result of the “subjective” nonsense of vicarious belief and vicarious salvation that people usually associate with “religion”—as if Real Awakening were merely a matter of asking some silly question or going to a few lectures for the weekend.
There are literal changes in the nervous system, literal changes in the chemistry of the body, literal changes in the structural functioning of the brain.
I bilocate, that I somehow stand in front of them in My bodily (human) Form. However, bilocation is a phenomenon that relates to the subtle body. What you “experience” As Me Is My Transcendental Spiritual Transmission (or Projection, or Expansion) of My Divine Body. My Divine Body is not a physical manifestation. My Divine Body is not a subtle manifestation. I Show you Myself—My Own Divine Person and Presence. My Divine Form Is the “Bright”, the Love-Bliss-Form That you can feel Tangibly Touching you, Surrounding you, Moving in you, Making all kinds of changes. That Is My Divine Body. I can Manifest My Divine Body anywhere—and I Do So, all the time. I Only Manifest Myself. If you enter into the devotional relationship with Me, then the Divine Process begins to duplicate Itself in your case. It is not as if you are a robot that is being transformed by some computer—no. The Process is a living and human relationship to Me. But that Process has nothing to do with the conventional “doctor-patient” and “mommy-daddy-baby” games. Irresponsible people cannot enter into this Process. If you are irresponsible, you feel that you are the victim of events, the victim of your own reactivity coinciding with events. You presume that you have to analyze those events, and analyze your reactivity, and (thereby) discover what is to be blamed for your current state.
Past events do not control your life—you control your life. You are not a victim, and no one is to blame. There is no event whatsoever that is so mighty that you cannot transcend your own reactivity in relation to it. None. Not one event. And not any complex of events. Moment to moment devotional turning to Me is what makes the difference.
Am your Unique Advantage, because I Am Present in the same kind of bodily form as you—Manifested via the same kind of physical structure, the same kind of nervous system, the same kind of brain. In My Case, however, all these mechanisms are Conformed to an Absolute level of Functioning, such that your entering into Communion with Me brings changes even at the level of the psycho-physical body that you present to Me.
The “Ascension” of Jesus is reported in detail in the “New Testament” book of the “Acts of the Apostles” and, in less detail, but with the voice of “authority”, in the “Gospel of Mark” and the “Gospel of Luke”.
And this clearly suggests that such “reports”—especially relative to the “Ascension” of Jesus, and (perhaps) also relative to the “Resurrection” of Jesus—may (in one manner or another, or to one or another degree) be later “official” fabrications, perhaps added in order to “flesh out” a non-gnostic (or anti-gnostic) theology about the Jesus legend.
The Principal Christian Idea
basis of original exoteric Christianity is indicated esoterically (or in the esoteric tradition of original Christianity) by the “secret” Christian (and, otherwise, “universal” and fifth stage) practice of internal (and psycho-physically based) Spiritual “Ascent” into (and toward above) the brain core. And,
As such, the original Christian tradition always first establishes an exoteric foundation of “religious” practice, and, then (by various modes of “advanced”, and, characteristically, renunciate, association and practice), moves on to the esoteric Spiritual process (once the foundation of life-purity and the upward re-orientation is firmly established).
Thus, “official”, and merely conventional (or “this-worldly”), Christianity is, fundamentally, altogether (and more and more exclusively) purposed to achieve institutionally “religious”, and social, and political ends in this “world”.
the Indivisible and Self-Illuminated Divine Spiritual Fullness That Shines Eternally Above the heart, and the mind, and the body of every human being.
And no darkness or dark power in the cosmic world can ever defeat or destroy or steal away the Spiritual Love-Light that Breathes the world.
The Divine Spirit-Breath Pervades everywhere in this entire world, like a wind that blows through an open place. You may hear the sound of a wind, but you cannot observe where it originated, nor can you predict where it may go next.
“All of them who exhibit compassion toward all other living beings will also experience the Compassion of Divine regard for their own life of suffering. [Matthew 5:7]
When Jesus would teach in public, he would, typically, “soften the edges” of his most demanding principles of moral and religious instruction by speaking them in the form of parables, or curious and somewhat roundabout stories—so that, if people were truly interested, they would have to ask more questions, and reach for their lessons, rather than be given them for free, without the demand to exercise their minds, and hearts, and daily lives to get the point. [Mark 4:1,2]
And, if they remain innocent and mindless, at least to that degree, they will not lose their heart—where every deepest secret rests asleep, and, yet, would be made all awake, to seed new Spirit-life, when each one’s true right day-time comes to them.” [Mark 4:12]
Sometimes, Jesus would show his temper in fiery moods and speeches—especially after some wine and fraternity with close followers. On such occasions, Jesus would let go a shout of hard sayings, even rudely put—but always right to the point of what must be said, at least among friends. And, so, his “flaming table-speeches” would sound something like this:
Leave the streets behind you. Turn your daily ears to me—and do not listen to the propaganda of the worldly mind. Hear my good news of the Spiritual Way of life—and be transformed in your life and house, by me. [Matthew 23:2–3]
“Philosophers without life. Politicians without love or pity. Wisdom-peddlers without a Master or a Way. All who ‘speak with authority’ and plan our progress as if they, themselves, invented our very existence. Everything they say is the product of their own self-consciousness and fear.
Source. Grow up to adulthood’s height and disenchanted calm. Serve one another, and understand that your True Source is One—and it is the Source of all.
“The Divine Spirit-Breath inhabits the love that is always hidden in every heart. And that love is, itself, the only power that is Divinely appointed to rule the world. [Matthew 23:11]
“Damn the righteous talking-thinkers and popular prophets of mediocrity. They broadcast their petty words around the human world, in order to reduce every man, woman, and child to their own likeness.
What is greater, the mind that separates itself in order to know and control the things of fear, or the body that is already one with the fearless Spirit-Breath of Truth? What is greater, the thought that ‘I know’?—or the body that surrenders in love?
And any one whose heart confesses that ‘Salvation’ is bodily communion with the Divine Spirit-Breath will forever remain alive, in the Eternal Room of Indivisibility. [Matthew 23:16–22]
“Humanity. Humanity. Assassin of the ancient Truth. Betrayer of the Always True Divine. How often I have wished to comfort you, as a mother whispers to her angry child, and makes the weeping cease. But you do not want the Truth. You refuse to listen to the teaching that awakens the heart. You oppress and scandalize every Divine-incarnate Master-Lover of the world—and, thus, you also deny yourselves the Spirit-Breathing Power of my own holy birth and sacred company. [Matthew 23:37] “And, yet, I will not abandon you as you have abandoned me. As long as a single particle of the human shape remains, I will be standing here—until you embrace my feet and say, ‘How radiant is the human body when it is surrendered into selfless heart-communion with the Spirit-Breath of Truth’s Divinity.’” [Matthew 23:38–39] 18
“The holy seer John the Divine once saw such people ‘clothed in white robes’ (in other words, in robes of justification) and with ‘palms in their hands’ [Rev. 7:9] (signaling victory), and they sang a wonderful song to God, ‘Alleluia’ [Rev. 7:10]. And none were able to imitate the beauty of their song. An angel of God said of them, ‘These are the people who have been through the great persecution, and because they have washed their robes white again in the blood of the Lamb’ [Rev. 7:14]. They were purified through their sufferings and made white in the Communion of the immaculate and life-giving Mysteries of the Body and Blood of Christ—the purest, blameless Lamb—who, by his own will, was slain before all ages in order to save the world, and who is continually slain and divided until now, but is never emptied. Through the Holy Mysteries, we are given eternal, unerring salvation as final, holy provision for eternal life, as a satisfactory answer at his righteous judgement, and as an invaluable substitute beyond comprehension for the fruit of the tree of life—of which Lucifer, the enemy of all mankind, who fell from heaven, wanted to deprive the human race. Even though the enemy, the devil, seduced Eve, and Adam also fell with her, the Lord still promised them a Redeemer, from the fruit of the seed of woman, to vanquish death. And he also granted us all—in the woman, the Mother of God, the Ever-Virgin Mary, who crushes the head of the serpent in herself and in all—a tireless mediator with her Son and our God, and an unconquerable and persistent intercessor for even the most despondent sinners. For this reason, the Mother of God is also called the ‘Scourge of demons’, as it is impossible for a demon to ruin a man as long as mankind itself resorts to the aid of the Mother of God.
“How do you feel now?” asked Father Seraphim. “Exceptionally well,” I said. “But well in what way? What exactly do you feel?” I answered, “I feel such calm and peacefulness in my soul that I am unable to express it in words.”
SRI RAMAKRISHNA’S TRANSMISSION OF HIS OWN SPIRIT-PERSON INTO THE PERSON OF SWAMI VIVEKANANDA
That very Atman (or Essence) is Ram and Rahim,13 Krishna and Karim,14 Jesus and Moses as well. He is the sole support of all. This universe is a manifestation of His infinite play. Putting on the twin forms of man and woman, He—the Great Being—exists in both. Verily, these are like the two facets of the self-same coin—named Purusha-Prakriti, or Shiva-Shakti—and this world is the expansion of these two.
The real beauty, the essence of savory taste, the celestial music, the most soothing touch, and the sweetest fragrance—all lie inside. Yogis who have experienced such things within consider the outer things to be merely ordinary.
In what words can I express the beauty of inner Light! It is unparalleled; all lights of the outer world are too dim and unpleasant before It. Similarly, compared to the inner celestial music, worldly music is crude and jarring.
The inner touch is too subtle and great to be described, for it is a Divine touch.
THE PROCESS OF SPIRITUAL ASCENT The Progressive Steps of The Fifth Stage of Life All Yogic (or mystical) practices associated with the process of Spiritual ascent—via the spinal line and the brain core, to and through the subtle levels of mind, and to and through the crown of the head, and (ultimately) to the highest Realization (above the body, the brain, the mind, all conditional “knowledge”, all conditional “experience”, and all conditional “worlds”)—may, in some general sense, be described as fifth stage practices.
Thus, conventional (or ego-based and personally strategic) prayer will tend to produce “results”—if such prayer is offered with a degree of real force and integrity of psycho-physical participation.
That Energy tends to produce “effects” according to the esoteric practitioner’s intention—even if no “substitution magic”, or ritualized employment of “God”-ideas (or “tribal Deity-myths”), is introduced into the process. The body-mind-complex is itself the only necessary “technique” for participation in the cosmic processes of “cause-and-effect”.
Realize Most Perfect Freedom From the ego-“I” (or “self”-contraction) and From all seeking (or All Strategies Based On, or Motivated By, “self”-contraction).
Openly and Deeply “Locate” and “Know” Me, and (Thus and Thereby) Become Profoundly and Radiantly Full Of Me, and (By All Of These Only-By-Me Given Means) Feel-Radiate Beyond all physical, emotional, mental, etheric, and psychic contraction of heart, head, Total body, and breath. That Is The Simple Essence Of The Fullest Right Practice Of “Radical” Devotion To Me (or True Devotional-and-Transcendental-Spiritual Communion With Me), Which Is Itself (Right, True, and Full) The Essential Practice Of Adidam.
The Perfectly egoless Transcendental Spiritual “Brightness” Of Self-Evidently Divine Love-Bliss-Fullness— Even now, and, Forever, Now.
Feel Me—By “Locating” Me Infinitely Above the Total body-mind-complex, and By Whole-bodily-Responding To My “Bright” Transcendental Spiritual Presence (Above, and All-Around-Surrounding, and Entirely Pervading the Total body-mind-complex), and By Radiating My (Thus Beheld and “Located” and “Known”) Love-Bliss-Fullness (In All Directions, Boundlessly).
To Life, With Love Of Me On Fire. Take Refuge In My Bath and Balm, and Melt To Centerless and Boundless Contentment Under My Gentling Hand and Darling Foot. Listen To Me. Hear Me. See Me. Accept My “Bright” Gift Of Perfectly egoless Conscious Light and Of Divine Transcendental Spiritual Love-Bliss.
My “Bright” Sun Rises From The Heart-“Root”, and Stands, Forever Uneclipsed,8 Above The Garden Tree,9 Above and Beyond The Pentagrammic Star.
(inhaling-Receiving My Love-Bliss-Fullness, and exhaling-Releasing, or Fully Relaxing Into, My Love-Bliss-Fullness).
Therefore, Altogether, The Entire Four-Part Exercise Of Whole-bodily-Responsively ego-Transcending (and, Altogether, Right, True, and Full) Devotion To Me Must Be An Upwardly Whole-bodily-Yielding and Downwardly Whole-bodily-Conducting “self”-contraction-Relinquishing Action Of Feeling-Surrender (and Feeling-Relaxation and Feeling-Opening) Of the Total (and even principally physical) head (Rather Than a mere gesture of mind, or of already contracted attention), the Total (physical, and Ever More Deeply Feeling) heart, the Total (and pleasurably balanced) physical (and Deeply sensory) body, and (at random) the Total (or constant two-part cycle of) physical and feeling and (As Given By Me) Transcendental Spiritual breath, inhaled (generally via the nose, with mouth closed, and even with a slight “rasping” or “drawing” sound, via the back of the Opening throat), down, and Opening Down, and Even (Intentionally) Pressed Down, and Opening,
Therefore, My Devotee Must Be Responsible For The Four Principal Faculties Of the body-mind—In every moment, and Under all circumstances. Instead Of Wandering In the maze of thoughts, Give Me The Faculty Of mind—Which Is Epitomized By, and As, attention (itself). Instead Of Being Tossed About By the waves of emotions, Give Me The Faculty Of emotion—Which Is Epitomized By, and As, feeling (itself). Instead Of Seeking bodily Pleasure and Avoiding bodily Pain, Turn (or Face) the body Toward My Divinely-Avatarically-Born Bodily (Human) Divine Form, and (Altogether) Give Me the body—Through Full Feeling-Intention, Enacted Through Constant Devotional Service To Me. The Faculties Of mind (or attention), emotion (or feeling), and body Are Connected To One Another Via the breath—and, Thus, The Gesture Of Turning To Me Must Also Be Done Via the breath.
Devotional Communion With Me Is Inherently Prior To Egoity
When You, As My Actively Counter-egoically Responsive Devotee, Truly Comprehend That (By Virtue Of The Truly and Constantly Exercised Devotional Relationship To Me) You Have Been Granted Really Effective (or At Least Significantly, and Undeniably, psycho-physically Evident) Freedom From Your ego-Patterning, Then You Have Begun To Consciously Live In The Always Already Prior Position (In Which The Patterns Of egoity Are Not, Themselves, Always Already Existing).
To Truly Turn the entire body-mind-“self” To Me Establishes—or, Really, Is—The Space Of Prior Freedom From All The ego-Bondage That You Are (Otherwise) Advocating As “self”.
TURN THE PRINCIPAL FACULTIES OF THE BODY-MIND TO ME— AND DISREGARD THEIR CONTENTS
When things arise in mind—Instead Of Struggling With them, Trying To Get Rid Of them, or Trying To Surrender them—Simply Give Me Your attention (or The Core Of Your mind). Do Not Try To Get Rid Of the content, or Try To Surrender the content To Me, or Try To Surrender the content In Order To Get To Me. Simply Turn attention itself To My Divinely-Avatarically-Born Bodily (Human) Divine Form and Person. No Effort Is Required. You Need Not Struggle With the mind-forms. In Your Simple Turning To Me, You (Thereby, Inherently) Disregard what is arising in mind. You Turn attention To Me, and (Thus and Thereby) Forget About mind. You Do Not Try To Make Something Happen In the mind, Nor Do You Try To Surrender the mind By Surrendering its content To Me. You Surrender The Function Of mind By Turning Your attention To Me.
Whatever Functions You Are Performing In any moment of functional activity, You Should (Merely and Simply) Turn Your Feeling-attention To Me. Always Direct (or Merely and Simply Turn) the body To Serving Me. Direct the body To Be The Servant, Rather Than Make it The “Object” Of Your Concern. And, In The Relatively Inactive Context Of Sitting To Meditate On Me, The Admonition To Serve Me Is Fulfilled By, Simply, physically (bodily) Facing My Divinely-Avatarically-Born Bodily (Human) Divine Form (Either Via My Murti Or, As The Case May Be, Directly).7
Because The Four Principal Faculties Are Senior (or Always Prior) To Their content, Each Of The Four Principal Faculties Of the body-mind Is Always Available Either To Be Reactively Turned To Its Own Apparent content Or To Be Devotionally Turned To Me (In and As My Divinely-Avatarically-Born Bodily Human Divine Form and Person). Therefore, Truly, There Are No moments when The Me-Beholding Turning Of the Otherwise Separate (and Separative) “self” To Me Is More Difficult Than In other moments—Unless My Devotee Turns To (and Identifies With) the Apparent content of the Separate (and Separative) body-mind-“self”.
Do Not Keep Checking Back On those contents—To See If they Are Changing! In Your Truly Right Practice Of “Radical” Devotion To Me, You Forget the contents of the body-mind-complex. You (Simply) Do Not Use them. You Do Not Build Upon them. You Make them Obsolete By Not Using them.
The “Programs” Of egoic Habit Do Not Persist Unless You Give Them Your life-Energy and attention. If You Give Your life-Energy and attention To Me (Instead), Then All Your egoic “Programs” Will, Ultimately, Become Obsolete and (Literally) Vanish. That Is The Divine Truth and The Divine Law.
In That Turning, attention Moves To Me In A Fearless, Whole bodily Disposition—and Even Your breathing Becomes A Whole-bodily-Recognition-Responsive Invocation Of Me.
The ego-“I” Is Not (and Cannot Be) My Devotee. There Is No Such Thing As egoic Devotion To Me. There Is Either ego Or Devotion To Me. There Is Either “self”-Contraction Or Devotion To Me.
True Devotion To Me Is The Only Happiness, and The Only Freedom From The Steel-Hard Mechanical and Chemical Bondage Of Suffering In Which You Are (Otherwise) Investing Yourself.
Therefore, Invoke Me, Feel Me, Breathe Me, and Serve Me. Make No “Room” For any “thing” Else. That Is What It Is To Be My True Devotee.
I Am As I Am. I am not merely Reflecting. The Mirror is not “busy” Reflecting everything. The Mirror Is What Is. The Mirror Is the Reflector to (and of) egos—but Always Acausally (or Indifferently), Always Free-Standing As Itself (Prior to and Beyond all apparent differences). The Mirror is not doing any Reflecting. The Mirror is not doing any observing. The Mirror is not doing anything. The Mirror Is Inherently Free. The Mirror Is Transcendental, Inherently Spiritual, and Self-Evidently Divine. The Self-Nature, Self-Condition, and Self-State That Is the Mirror Itself Is What must be Self-“Located” and Self-Realized—moment to moment (and, at last, Most Perfectly).
“Narcissus” must be transcended. The only-by-Me Revealed and Given Reality-Way of Adidam is about the transcending of egoity, not the fulfillment of egoity. Therefore, as My devotee, you must be involved in a moment to moment practice that actually transcends your own psycho-physical patterning. Mere “talk” about transcending the ego is useless. You must actively transcend egoity—which means that you must actually transcend your psycho-physical patterning.
My Divine “Bright” Spherical Self-Domain is not a place in which egos “walk around” enjoying themselves. My Divine “Bright” Spherical Self-Domain Is Reality Itself—Self-Existing, Self-Radiant, and Absolute. To Self-Abide in My Divine “Bright” Spherical Self-Domain Is Most Perfect Divine Self-Realization. To Self-Abide in My Divine “Bright” Spherical Self-Domain Is the Culmination of the only-by-Me Revealed and Given Reality-Way of Adidam—Which is, from the beginning, the seventh stage Way.
As an ego-“I”, you are simply living out your egoic (or separative) destiny—and nothing else. As an ego-“I”, you are the life-dramatization of “Narcissus”.
As a socially-adapted ego-“I”, you are grounded in the collective ideal and “self”-image of “the good life”—imagining you are born to be fulfilled, satisfied, kissed, cuddled, congratulated, and immortalized. No one who has ever Realized the Truth to any Real degree has ever functioned on such a basis.
How are you to not indulge in that ego-pattern? By turning all the faculties (body, emotion, mind, and breath) to Me—ignoring the interior contents of the faculties, and truly serving Me, such that you drop the outer performance of ego-patterning. Such is the very practical nature of real and right (moment to moment) practice of the Reality-Way of Adidam—non-indulgence in the ego-pattern, demonstrated as the responsive (and really ego-transcending) activity of turning to Me, both inwardly and outwardly.
Thus, a True Realizer is not simply one who utters a Teaching. Rather, a True Realizer is the Incarnation of That Which he or she has Realized.
In general, what the “world” wants—and, therefore, what “religious” institutions tend to provide—is social association and optimistic talk, perhaps in combination with “self”-applied “techniques” that people can use as means for consoling themselves. Therefore, in the “modern world”, instead of cultures of right practice, there are “religion businesses” and “workshops”. The “modern world” is a fragmented “world”—full of individuals who regard their own separateness and independence as “absolute”, who demonstrate no profundity, and who are not moved by profundity. In this “modern world”, human beings are becoming progressively more and more preoccupied with “self”, and with all of the “whatevers” that can be pursued within the framework of egoity and “worldliness”.
That Which Is to Be Realized is not in the realm of mind. Therefore, Realization is not about eternalizing mind. Realization is not about the life of the mind after death. Rather, Realization is about Reality Itself—Prior to mind, Prior to patterning, Prior to the “world”-mummery. Reality Itself—Which Is Divine—Is All The God There Is. In and of and As Itself, Reality (Itself) Is Self-Existing and Self-Radiant. That is What there is to Realize.
There is no such thing as eternal mind. That notion is an absolute illusion. The mind is as mortal as the hardware, as mortal as the bodily machine. When the machine stops working, the mind likewise stops working. The only mind that exists afterward is the mind carried by the other replicating machines. So what is there after death? The same thing as there is before birth—Reality Itself, the Divine Self-Nature, Self-Condition, and Self-State only. After death—as, also, during the physical lifetime—anything and everything of mind persists only non-personally, as pattern patterning, without intrinsic “self”-consciousness.
No longer was “I” a victim of whatever conditions were arising. No longer was “I” trapped within the structures of the body-mind. Such free understanding and heart-insight had never been my capability before this time. In that moment, Bhagavan Granted the Great Gift of Hearing.
Strong habits of the body-mind began to dissolve and become unnecessary. It became obvious that even presuming to “be” the body-mind is itself just a habit, which is also dissolved by Beloved Bhagavan’s Grace.
His Descent from Above removed me from ordinary perceptual awareness. I felt His Love-Blissful Light Pouring down through the crown of the head into the brain core. His Light Filled the head and throat, and the mind utterly vanished. The heart opened to its core. Like liquid Light, His Divine Current of Love-Bliss Moved down the frontal line to the bodily base. As His Current Descended, I felt an enormous expansion and great force. His Transcendental Spiritual Invasion was overwhelming.
rotation released all sense of self-centeredness, such that existence was felt as an egoless energy-body, in the shape of a boundless Sphere.
The Revelation of Consciousness In response to Bhagavan’s immeasurable Gift of the “Thumbs”, my heart was moved to confess “I am Consciousness”. By the Grace of my Beloved Divine Master, it became obvious that everything that arises in body, mind, or world is an effort to separate—and, simultaneously, that Consciousness Itself does not “follow” what is arising. Consciousness was Revealed to be Prior, egoless, and Silent—the Always Already Reality. Bhagavan Adi Da’s Current of Love-Bliss dissolved attention itself, the total self-contraction, and therefore all holding on to anything arising—even the most blissful states of the body-mind that occurred in His Company. Whatever was arising was simply Witnessed. In that Grace-Given Stand, there was the capability to Be Consciousness Itself, utterly free of any binding involvement in the apparent “event” of body-mind and world.
It was an ecstatic and joyful process for me to respond to these questions about my practice, for I was not resorting to the body-mind to answer them. Instead, I simply entered deeply into feeling exactly what my experience was, communicating that freely and in specific technical detail. The dialogue finally culminated on February 2, 1988, when Bhagavan Granted His formal Initiation into the deepening practice in the Witness-Position.
When the ascending motion reached its zenith, there was no experience—no body, no mind, no thought, no feeling, no perception, no sense of time or space or form. The Infinite, Formless Love-Bliss of Bhagavan Adi Da completely Absorbed my being, so that now there was only His Love-Bliss.
A pleasurable fluid Force passed down my whole body and brought awareness to a point of stillness, equanimity, and intense bliss. The body-mind felt entirely surrendered into the Divine Self of Avatar Adi Da Samraj.
Him. He had Shown me that He Is the Only One Who Is, drawing me beyond all conditional forms to a “Place” where His Boundless Love-Bliss is Perfectly Known.
Before entering such a state, I would often feel an intense Infusion of His Blessing-Power Descend from Above the body, activating the Circle and the Arrow, such that His Divine Love-Bliss-Current became perfectly Full in the body, with no apparent movement up or down. This Infusion of His Love-Bliss-Current, coupled with the Brilliant White Light of His Divine Transcendental Spiritual Body, was always in evidence. Then, quickly, association with the gross physical dimension of existence would become extremely diffuse.
I recall feeling a profound downward Descent of liquid Light and the Emergence of Your Divine Body as a Radiant Sphere. I was Intoxicated. My body was pulsating in utter Yogic sublimity, and then You began to Reveal Yourself as the Very Source and Condition and Substance and Energy of all, in most profound terms. I passed beyond bodily awareness, and in this ecstatic Samadhi I felt the non-necessity for anything. Even when I re-associated with the body, You continued to Reveal the Truth of No-“difference”. There is nothing that is separate from You.
space. I felt You completely Overwhelm the body in Descent to the deep root-core of the being, and then Beyond, such that my entire being responded to Your Current of Love-Bliss with Intoxicated and deepest love. I felt You as “Bright” White Light and I felt Your Light as a liquid, or water, of Love. As I resumed normal psycho-physical awareness, I experienced a sensation of burning, a purifying Spiritual Fire that has been generated in me, a Fire of penance, of real humility. Astounded by this Initiation, accepting all with profound gratitude, I bowed down.
The “I”-sense of the body-mind being in a world dissolves in the overwhelming Revelation of Your Divine Person. Identity as a body, a mind, an emoter, a knower, a doer, a dreamer, a separate one—an identity at all—dissolves in the Divine Fire-Light of Your Outshining “Brightness”.
Instead of Reality Itself (Which Is Intrinsically and Self-Evidently Divine) being the necessary beginning of true (and Intrinsically Perfect) philosophy, appearances are always becoming the beginnings of conventional (and intrinsically false, or ego-bound and “self”-deluded) philosophy.
Reality Itself Is Always Already The (One and Only) Case. Therefore, it is not necessary (nor is it possible) that Reality Itself be Realized in a “cause-and-effect”-dependent manner—as a result of some chain of happenings, or modes of seeking, or applications of “method”.
• That Divine Spiritual Light of Love is, now and forever, Shining Above the world. And the Spirit-Breath of Divine Love-Light may also Descend into the body of any human being it chooses to Bless. And no darkness or dark power in the cosmic world can ever defeat or destroy or steal away the Spiritual Love-Light that Breathes the world. And the Eternal Divine Love-Light Shines on all beings from the Divine Place of Origin, Above the body and the mind of every Spirit-Breathing being in the world.